[	god i'm so	|	bouncy	]
[	listening to	|	escape ( the pina colada song)	]

yeah so i havent updated in a bitch-ass long time. but i do have an excuse i swear.here goes:

i got a massively bad ear infection like two weeks ago. i mean i was in tears 22 hours a day. the first night i actually ended up calling my ma at like 4 in the morning because it hurt so bad and i couldnt sleep and i didnt want to wake up ryan or anyone else to keep me company. anyway my doctor tells me i have a "WILD" ( swear to god thats a direct quote) ear infection. she gives me antibiotics, a decongestant to help it drain and two kinds of pain killers, which were fabulous. anyway the decongestant worked too well because before i knew it my ear was leaking. apparently this isnt good because this means theres a hole in my eardrum. anyway i went back in and got two more antibiotics and a different kind of pain killer. its really sad when the pharmacy ladies know you by name. anyway im supposed to go see a specialist because they still dont know if the eardrum healed correctly ( and based on the fact that it still hurts occaisonally, it probly didnt). so im waiting till i go home for spring break ( 3rd week o' march) to a doctor NOT from the boonies, cuz i dont trust these hick doctors down in c-dale.basically if theres still a hole or a scab they need to skin graft it.fun times, not really. also the meds got me sicker but i wont get into that cuz its kinda a girl thing.ANYWAY......

valentines day was fun times. i woke up at 5:30 and made ryan and sean chocolate chip pancakes with reddi whip and strawberries. i made like 20 of them and fortunately almost all of them turned out halfway decent. so i had kinda found out my present the day before but i was still excited. ryan got me more tutti dolce lipgloss which is my current gloss obsession. so now i have angel food cake and another chocolate fondue to add to my collection. he also got me one of those fun peely face masks cuz he knows i love stuff like that and ive been bitching that my skins been so dull lately. then he got me candles and this amazing shea butter with lavender and orange blossom. plus he even splurged for a really cute bag to put it all in. i was actually really surprised he spent so much. anyway i spent the day waiting for the fedex guy to drop off ryans pizza. i had ordered him lou malnatis for dinner and thank god that because it was a "special day" they delivered on mondays, which usually they dont. anway the guys went and worked out and megan and i watched law and order. then ryan came home and meg left and ryan and i heated up the pizza. kinda sucked because the time they told us was totally wrong and the sausage one got a little burnt. anyway we ate, watched more law and order, and then ryan and i went upstairs and i got the most amazing massage with my body butter. well, it was amazing until he got to me feet and i flipped out. i hate being tickled.

sarah megan and i found a house and its adorable. its a little further than everyone else but itll be okay. we even have a cute little backyard with a white picket fence AND a basketball court. oh yeah, you know youre jealous.

megan and ian are dating. its retarded. yes megan i said retarded. dont worry , you'll get used to my "words" soon enough.

johnny rector peed on the green loveseat. its over at the cross now cuz we didnt want the peecouch in the house anymore so we put it on their porch with a note saying he owed us a new couch. it was bad cuz there were people sitting on it friday night and it just gave me the willies. then ray made fun of me for no  reason. i <3 ray martinez .

i  did 5  1/2 miles in a half hour last time i worked out. i came home and threw up. guess i pushed myself too much.

you really didnt need to know that last part.

[	god i'm so	|	good	]
[	listening to	|	the party monster soundtrack	]

so i realy dont feel like updating about christmas. it was kinda boring anyway. i got stuff for my house so that was kinda cool. i also got a new charm for my charm bracelet. my cousin got me strawberry shortcake. the thing is, i was never really into her so i took it back and got MADELINE! i was happy. i also got a new barbell for my piercing, and lots of super cute undies from H&M.

so the day before new years eve i went up to glenview and had dinner with ryans family and his uncle denny. we got lou malnoti's which totally made my day. even though i got tomato in my top. it was black, so who cares.then we went to the glen where we kinda got into a fight. the reason being was that i had wanted to go to the zoo, and he kinda forgot about it. but it was okay cuz he got bubble tea and i got coffee and we saw oceans 12. there was a commercial in the beginning about st judes research hospital and i was watching all these dying kids smiling and i just lost it and started apologizing to ryan for yelling at him and and i was all sobbing and it was bad. he pulled me into his lap ( not easy in a theater chair) and just calmed me down. i know he was trying to not to laugh, but it didnt work. damn those lukemia children for making me apologize!

anyway the movie was good, too. it was one of those where i start getting excited at the end and start getting all "OMG?!? did you know that was going to happen?!?!" fortunately he doesnt care. so then i came home and ryan stayed over for awhile/ i tried to wake him up tiwce to go home but he just rolled over. finally at like 6:45 he came into my room and laid down next to me for a few minutes. then he left. basically he went home and slept for like 3 hours then went to james's to help him move some stuff. then he came back down and hung out at my house for awhile. we waited for my dad to get home from work before we left to go back up north, so in the meantime we dicked around on myspace and played with ruby, whom ( for some reason) he absolutely adores.then my dad came home and said it was okay that i went and stayed over with ryan.

i'll finish this later. i swear.

[	god i'm so	|	giggly	]
[	listening to	|	comedy central presents:dane cook	]

so i havent updated in a million years. so instead of doing dishes, i'll update now.

so i've been home for like two weeks. it's been okay. the first week at home i basically just ate.and cleaned. the it was like -wow its friday, christmas eve. my plan for christmas eve this year was to go to ryans then come back to my house the next morning.my mom was pretty pissy about me staying over, but my dad said it was fine. i luv muh daddy!so anyway woke up friday massively earlybecause i was supposed to do some last minute shopping with  my mom. then when she woke me up, i realized i wouldnt have any time to get ready before ryan got here. so my mom and brothers went. i watched the wgn morning news and i saw the suzy snowflake cartoon, which made me very happy. then i took a super long bath, then a shower after, then got ready. my mom got back around noon and then left again. ryan got to my house at like one. we were going to go downtown cuz we needed to get andie ( his cousin) a present. i knew that- but apparently we had to get one for his other cousin liam.so we go downtown and park for free in my daddy's parking lot. which was awesome cuz we saved like 15 bucks.plus we were right on michigan ave. so being it was christmas eve, like every restaurant was closing early. we walked like half a mile down michigan trying to find somewhere to eat. finally, we found tgi fridays. I was NEVER so happy in my life. so we ate. tried to figure out what to get his cousins. then i remembered ( duh) that niketown was next door. andie's a tomboy.so we go in and we end up getting this cute velour zip up hoodie for her, even though i was afraid it'd be too small. then we try and find a toy store ( damn fao schwartz just HAD to close didnt they?) so the girl at niketown says there's a kb toys on state across from the nordstrom rack. now i know this area pretty well and i didnt remember there being a toystore tehre, but whatever. so we walk back to randolph, just so i could see the windows at fields again. so we walk down state like another six blocks. theres nothing. finally i stop a guy sweeping up outside mcdonalds and hes like "ummm no theres no toystore around here" FUCK! but there was a radio shack across the street so we just got liam a remote control car that he can hit people with.

at this point i should mention that i was wearing my black boots. which really have no support to them. i was crying. plus it was 4 degrees. so to make up for it ryan took me into fields and we went up to the walnut room and saw the jackie o. christmas tree. it was pink. it was sweet. then on the way out, i got sidetracked by all the chain metal purses from yves saint laurent. ryan about pissed his pants when he saw the price. whatever. $735 is nothing for a nice purse like that. finally we got back to the car. my feet KILLING me. so we headed up to belmont to pick up james and jessie from squint ( where james works). we got home pretty quickly which was nice. we got back to the house and mrs kane gave me a huge hug. i missed her. so i ran into the computer room and wrapped andies present ( she was sitting at the kitchen island). then i came out and actually sat down and met andie ( i talk to her online but i've never met her) his uncle denny, and aunt regina. theyre form texas, and are so cute!so  we ate goat cheese and sun dreid tomatos and i had some very good wine. then after like 4 glasses of that wine, mrs kane decides to make cosmos for "her girls" jessie and i.so i had one with dinner. fun story- we had gumbo. i told ryan he could put a little crab on mine, even though i dont like seafood. so i ate the crab. it was yummy. hell i even ate two of the shrimp. but i finished all of the chicken piece in myy gumbo. then dave action showed up and the soristo boys and it was just a little party. mr. kane had been drinking wine like it was beer ( plus he hadnt eaten all day) so he got wasted. he was in bed by 9:15. so were eating and drinking ( my second cosmo) and james mentions the oysters were really good. then i cheerily expalin i didnt get any oysters. everyone looks at me and james says "that white thing in your gumbo was an oyster". well me being stupid ( and also a little tipsy) exclaims loudy "wait i thought it was chicken!"

i am dumb.

so anyway mrs kanes brother and his family left ( andie loved the jacket but it was too small - she is the tallest 14 year old ive ever seen) and eventually the rest of the guys did too. so it was mrs kane, her sons, and their girlfriends ( or in jessie's case.....friend/kinda girlfriend, i dunno). so we started smoking in the house as we cleaned which was so much nicer than all of us having to go outside. then we found out mr. kane got sick in the bathroom. anway after everything was all cleaned i told ryan i wanted to open my presents. so we did presesnts then. i made him open his first. i got him blazing saddles, young frankenstein, and spaceballs on dvd, plus a bunch of popcorn and raisinettes. then i opened up mine. he got me a claddagh locket. it is seriously gorgeous and i started crying. of course i was still coming down from being drunk but i seriously cried. best christmas present ever. then he and his brother opened up their presents. mrs. kane got me ralph lauren p.j's. and theyre pink. she knows me too well. then we had some tea and i went to bed. ryan came upstairs about 10 minutes later and we snuggled and ........ya know. BEST CHRISTMAS EVE EVER.

ill write about christmas tomorrow or something.

[	god i'm so	|	pissy	]
[	listening to	|	the go-go's~ vacation	]

1. What did you do in 2004 that you'd never done before?  i got my first paying job. slept over at a boys house. had my first actual party on my birthday. i also got two piercings

2. Did you keep your New Year's resolutions, and will you make more for next year? . i always say i'm going to go to church more and watch carbs. neitehr ever happen so id ont see why this year should be different.

3. Did anyone close to you give birth? my cousin elizabeth had a new baby nov. 8th

4. Did anyone close to you die? my cousin michael

5. Where did you visit? the north side......a lot. wow i havent been anywhere this year.

6. What would you like to have in 2005 that you lacked in 2004? more cash. better grades. tighter ass.

7. What date from 2004 will remain etched upon your memory, and why? march 26. thats when i met ryan and as lame as it is, it was the perfect day of the year

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year? probly that i managed to score two jobs this year. oh yeah

9. What was your biggest failure? grades.......lets not talk about them

10. Did you suffer illness or injury? yeah i was hospitalized twice for anxiety attacks

11. What was the best thing you bought? train tickets and piercings

12. Whose behavior merited celebration? marcus finally broke up with the cunt-whore bitch. i was so proud i cried.

13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed? some adults i know AND an ex of mine. grow up and move on asshole.

14. Where did most of your money go? umm the train tickets, gas, cigarettes, and whiskey

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about? my birthday party, going back to school, my relationship with ryan

16. What song will always remind you of 2004? anything by judge dredd or dr. ringding.

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
i. Happier or sadder? HAPPIER
ii. Thinner or fatter? about the same ( sadly)
iii. Richer or poorer? definitely poorer ( i got zero money back for books, but when i go back to school i get my paycheck)
18. What do you wish you'd done more of? kept in touch with some of the people i hung out with last year

9. What do you wish you'd done less of? smoked

20. How did you spend Christmas? i'm spending christmas eve at ryans with his family then in the morning we're going to my house. then my gram's later

21. Who/what made the biggest difference in your life this year? ryan ( i know i'm so lame) and cass and robin and stacie have been great friends

22. Did you fall in love in 2004? yeah..............

23. How many one-night stands? .none actually. so proud of myself!

24. What was your favorite TV program? sex and the city and monday night "trading spouses" and "the swan" night rocks my socks

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year? no i dont hate anyone...........a lot, at least

26. What was the best book you read? finally read party monster and it made me afraid of drugs so bad i will never do anything like that EVER!

27. What was your greatest musical discovery? i started listening to the postal service a lot. plus i got on this whole ska, oi, and punk rock kick. and real punk rock. not good charlotte.

28. What did you want and get? a relationship where the person didnt dick me over, a job, more friends that werent backstabbing hoes

29. What did you want and not get? straight a's. my own apartment

30. What was your favorite film of this year? i actually did like spiderman 2. oh and mean girls!

31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you? i was 19 and we had a party at ryans. sadly it rained so we couldnt go to wilmette beach to see the fireworeks from the lake, but i still did drink a lot of jim beam. and even though i didnt get a cake, i did get lots of love and something from ryan.

32. What would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying? winning the lottery?

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2004? gap/express whore meets rockabilly chick. trust me it must be seen.

34. What kept you sane? my little tantrums, and the fact that ryan put up with them

35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most? honeslty? jenna jameson. i saw a bunch of interviews with her and i def. became a fan

36. What political issue stirred you the most? umm the election and it's gay-ass results.


37. Who did you miss? my puppy. and my boyfriend ( during the summer)


38. Who was the best new person you met? ryan, sean, dan, and my jews ( ian, stacie and robin)

39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2004? school seriosuly should come virst. put all your drama on the backburner and GO TO CLASS!




40. Quote a song lyric chunk o' poem that sums up your year:

And I say
Who would've thought that the dreams come true?
And who would've thought I ended up with you?
And who would've thought what they said was true?
But it was and you are, light in darkness come through

*who would've though* rancid

[	god i'm so	|	chipper	]
[	listening to	|	psychedelic furs~pretty in pink	]

so i havent updated in awhile. at least not in this journal so i'm just going  to have to highlight fun things from the last three weeks.

• bourbon knights with the crew was awesome. brad and jason came down from chicago so we spent the entire night in the bar. i'm such a snotty bitch i just order drinks and dont give a rats ass that im underage. the waitresses dont care. i'll have to post pictures from this night- theres some good ones. the night ended with us getting kicked out of the bar. yes. you read that right. and not because of underage drinking
• drive back to chicago was fun. stacie and me in the back and ry and ian in the front. we got hardees and i filled my drink up before we left. not a good idea because we had to stop 3 times for me to go to the bathroom. oh well.
• sunday was sad. i went with ryan to put shane, his golden retriever. it was a bad day.
• wednsday ryan and i were supposed to spend the day together and we were going to met up with marcus and it was going to be all kinds of fun. well he ended up going into work with his dad. then got stuck in traffic. then was late leaving his house, but he called and told me to pick somewhere nice for dinner. i was going to suggest  olive garden but when he showed up my jaw hit the floor. he was all dressed up with his good coat and scarf and hat. so then we went to the casino and went to the steakhouse thats on the top floor. we got drinks ( guinness and a long island) and i got filet mignon and he got sea bass with crab sauce. then we split tiramisu. it was so nice because it was starting to snow and we were all fun and dressed up and i thought i was lame for saying that i was glad i got to see the first snow of the season with him, but then he told me he was just about to say the same thing. we're so disgusting.
• thanksgiving was thanksgiving. snuck out with erica to get smokes. then i made a few "walks" in order to smoke them. i needed to- badly. saw the new baby. she's a cutie. played scene it jr. with some of the younger cuz's. went home.
• shopped the next day and got new lip gloss. its fabulous. then went to michaelenes to see the girls in a christmas parade. called ryan ( whowas hanging out with bob that night) and had him meet me for a few minutes. it was so nice. plus i missed robert. oh and i saw reindeer.

saturday is later.

[	god i'm so	|	giddy	]
[	listening to	|	main street saints	]

so saturday. at this point i dont remember exactly what it was that put me in a pissy mood in the first place but i spent most of the day in the bedroom. i didnt eat. i just dicked around on myspace for hours.ryan came up and asked if i wanted something to eat. i said no. so eventually he coaxed me downstairs and i was still all quiet and stuff. then i see a hardees bag. i was like who went to hardees? and ryan tells me he and dan went "remember when i asked you if you wanted something to eat?" well fuck i didnt want a peanut butter sandwich but if something to eat involved hardees i would've eaten it. it's actually really bad, ive been going through this terrible red meat withdrawl and all i want is a disgustingly greasy cheeseburger.anyway this just pissed me off even more. so i made soup. stacie called and was insisting i come out with them to go see the hairbangers ball at copper. i had zero money so i was hesitant with letting her pay my cover.anyway they wanted to come over anyway to see who was playing at the cross. so they did. we went over there. i basically hung out in the yard and then when ian went to sit down on the porch i went with him. we met tanner. the illustrious tanner. he really is frightening. more about him later.

so its 20 to 10. we decide to head back to stacies. robin goes and drops robbie off at his dorm and then when she gets back we head to copper.heather was our drink supplier so the long islands were flowing.. the band was awesome. they did ac/dc and cheap trick and white snake and pat benatar. we were going wild and so was e veryone else. i went into the bathroom and called jackie and apologized for not letting her know they were playing ( id only found out that day and she had begged me to tell her the next time they came down) when i got out i was really starting to feel the liquor. they were playing 'girls girls girls' and i decided itd be hysterical to ass-grind on ian. he freaked and was like "no colleen you cant do this! it'syou and me!" so the first set ended and robin was going to leave to get robbie and hang back at the house. i went with because i wanted to see ryan and i figured all the shows at big boys would be done by now.so we pick up robbie, go back to stacie and robins, i hung out for a little bit then walked back to ryans house. dave and sarah were on the porch and dave was drunk. he said the show was still going on, so i figured i'd wait. i was starving so i went and got the last piece of chicken lunchmeat from the fridge. went and sat inmy chair on the porch. and all the sudden heres oliver with his paws in my lap looking at the chicken. i swear he's acting like he hasnt been fed in a month. well i'm drunk and an animal is being cute so no doubt i gave  him the chicken.. then i was bored and called ryan. there was still about a half hour left of the show so why didnt i just go there.so i did.. i wasnt going to pay 5 bucks to see a band for 20 minutes though ( hell i didnt even have 5 bucks). so i walk in and teres no one at the door but this guy asks ive been in here before. i said no, but i was just looking to see if my boyfriend was here and i point to ryan across the room. i guess ryan had been helping them control some of the drunks that night so they knew him/ were cool with it. they just i.d.'d me and ryan finally saw me and walked over. he gave me a big kiss and hug and alll the sudden we both kinda got knocked over. tanner was going wild. we moved to the side a little bit more and i sat on a stack of chairs and ryan stood next to me. i drank more of his  jack and coke. ( smart kid. he put the jack in a flask and bought $1 cokes). tanner was being obnoxiously belligerent so all of the sudden i see one of the bartenders holding him by his waistband and pushing him by me towards the exit. he pushes him through the glass doors and THROWS him out into the street. it was totally the way to get thrown out of a bar. i found out later about 6 people total got thrown out. i guess the bands from chicago couldnt handle the 24 hour party and were throwing up everywhere. so the show ends and ryan ray martinez, who looks frighteningly like brian martinez but with a mohawk that ive never actally seen put up, go to abcc liquor to get more beer. we had to go through the drive through.anyway we get an 18 pack of budweiserand everyone starts heading back to the cross.us, malcolm, tilly, dierker was behind us, theis kid bryno, and like 10 more. everyone was dropping like flies.it definitely had the looks of a death march. so we get back and ryan and ray split the beers. so were sitting on the porch with these guys theat were in one of the bands, i didnt know which one, but we'll get back to them later. two of them were fucking around and spencer knocked gabe to the ground and he hit his head on the cement. ( i found out their names later) . now gabe already looked fucked up. he alid there for like 10 minutes and i was like "hun are you okay? he mumbled something and went inside. about ten minutes later he walked outside again and went and sat in the corner of the porch. so everyone is talking and this guy comes out who kinda looks like ryan but a little heaver and with hair is like "does anyone know where gabe is?" and i'm like "uhhhh the guy whos been in the corner for the past 20 minutes?" yeah that was him. so all the sudden all these guys, including ryan go over to him and and get him and start walking back to ryans. so obviously i follow. so it turns out the band manaconda is staying at the house because gabe is basically passed out. they guy that looked like ryan ( who was also ryan), the spencer kid, allen, and brendan. all found a couch, or chair, and the aero bed.so they were nice and they went to bed, then we did.

we woke up sunday morning and ryan went downstairs to check on the. everyone was slowly waking up. my ryan and allen went out to get breakfast and oil for their car. i sat on the porch with other ryan and smoked. it was 72 degrees. awesome. so anywayeveryone hung out. the guys from the cross came over. manaconda left. the guys from the cross left. we went back to bed.

later on that night ryan and i went to stacies because she had invited us for a "sunday dinner party" ryan kinda figured we'd be ther for an hour but it ended up being 5. we watched the end of spinal tap and the simpsons while we waited for robin and robbie to get back from the store. then she realized some of the cheese was bad so stacie and i went out and got more. so we had salad and rolls and baked mostcacholi ( and i just totally butchered that) and watched arrested development. then we ate the pie andcool whip and played "scene it!" which was so much fun. we did teams and ryan and i won, of course. everyone was so pissed. seriously i cant believe i knew some of those retarded questions. then we came home and went to bed. and snuggled. and told stories.

we are such losers.

[	god i'm so	|	wet ( just out of the shower)	]
[	listening to	|	destinys child	]

so i'll update on le weekend. it was crimefest at the lost cross and at big boys q'in. i wasnt super interested but whatevs.we ordered chinese and i got sesame chicken. then i stole a few pieces of ryans lemon chicken and his pork fried rice. my fortune was bogus.. stacie had called earlier to see if i wanted to come over for awhile and possibly go out later. ryan and dan were just going to drink at the house so i was totally up for it. stacie's a doll. ian was going to go over too, so he came over and met me and we walked over. stacie and robins house is soooooo cute! they have two cats, roxy and lucy, and robin has her two rats. im such a queer with animals.

anyway so the three of us robin, robins boy robbie, and their other roomate heather and i decide to play "apples to apples" as a drinking game. honestly i couldnt see it as anything but a drinking game but we had fun. we were drinking vodka- except ian, who had beer- so i had to mix mine with diet sunkist. i know it sounds revolting but it actually wasnt bad, just enough ornage flavor to cancel out the vodka burning my throat and b/c it was diet there wasnt too much fizz. so i got drunk off that stuff. mad-style drunk. then stacie heather and i decide we wanna go to gatsbys. ian goes back to ryans house and robin and robbie hang out there. first person i saw when i walked in was cass! we hung out and she intorduced me to a bunch of her new sisters. there was so much roomie love. i miss my cass-hole! anyway i had lost stacie and heather so i walked outside ready to leve when stacie calls me. she was still in the bar so i waited for her. she was sad and drunk so we walked back to ryans talking about how hot we were.

 we get home, i make myself another drink. and by the way i ws plastered at this point. stacie and ian go back to stacies. ryan made a comment about how he hoped ian was going to boof her. THEN everyone started talking about sex. it was me and ry and dan and a few of their friends on the porch and me being insanely gone, just started saying anything. i told them all how much oral ryan got that day and dan was like "yeah he told me you were good at that when you guys first started dating. there was another girl he liked but he stayed with you cuz you give good head." at this point i started BAWLING. ryan ws trying to calm me down and tell me none of it was true, which i guess i kinda believe. i went upstairs, posted drunken comments in some people's journals ( if one of them was yours, sorry). i crawled to bed when ryan came up and dragged me to the bathroom because he wanted me to throw up. i didnt have to, and i most likely wouldnt have had to, but the second he sat me in front of the toilet it was like that pavlov's dog thing. ring the bell the dog salivates. sit me in front of the toilet, i'm gonna get sick. and i did. and he watched. i was soooo pissed i think i hit him. then he put me in bed with a garbage can in case i needed it ( i tried explaining to him i didnt need to throw up in the first palce but he was trying to be comforting) so he leaves and tells me he'll be up in a half hour or so. this was a little after two. at 4:15 i woke up cold and he wasnt here. i managed to grab my phone next to me and i called him tiredly slurring, "where are you. come put another blanket on me" ( the blankets were right at the end of the bed.yes i am that lazy). he's like "oh im at the cross for after hours." now the cross is next door but i was still pissy about him not coming over. i was drunk and not all there. then i was kinda a bitch to him on saturday. but we'll talk about it later

[	god i'm so	|	enthralled	]
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so  ill update again.

so sunday we wake up and it really didnt feel too much like halloween. we also woke up massively early cuz of the whole time change thing. so ryan and i had croissants and mr. and mrs. kane went to home depot. its so cute the way they like to shop together. i hope thats me and ryan in 20 years. but anyway, we shower and get ready to head up to wrigleyville so ryan can get a new flight jacket. but then we got sidetracked by m*a*s*h so that derailed us like an hour. the kanes came home with three big pumpkins and two baby ones. apparently the depot was giving them away. fun times. so we get in the car and hed to the city. ryan took me by his old house in his old neighborhood. this is where he wants us to live when we get married, and i'd kinda been skeptical about it ( me......living on the north side......its just not right) but it was such an adorable place. so we end up going to belmont army and i help him try on jackets. he wanted a black one cuz the green one showed too much dirt plus it was really big on him and you know how skinheads like their clothes tighter than an overweight whore. so after that we head to airware ( doc store, whatever you wanna call it). we watched some johnny depp movie about a book and cults or something. i dunno it was more fun just wreaking havoc on the store and making jason tell me the price on everything, just to prove he knows only about 14% of the merchandise prices. then some trick or treating mexican children came down to get candy. some were dressed up, some werent. jason threw them the cauldrom of dum dums and told them to "get diabetes". awesome. then after they left the three of us kinda started helping ourselves to the cheap little suckers. i think i had 6 strawberry ones.but whatever there were no more kids, and even if there were, who cares.so then we wait for bob and inga to show up. they finally do. so we let jason get back to his nap ( yes he often locks the door and takes catnaps on the job) so we go find ingas halloween costume. she was going as courtney love so she needed a trashy dress and a trashy blonde wig. so we go to ragwear. nothing. go to hollywood mirror, which is a really cool store from the outside, but in the inside it smells like week old asshole. anyway she found a dress there. no wig. so they left and ryan and i went to clarkes because at this time it was 6:30 and all wed eaten were a croissant at 9 and suckers. oh but on the way to clarkes we did end up getting free monster energy drink. fun times. ate at clarkes. headed back to glenview. mr and mrs kane had carved the pumpkins. i drank my monster stuff which was like liquid candy. i had four sips before it went down the drain. THEN mrs kane gets out more pictures of ryan and i kept myself amused for hours until plans were made. she ended up letting me have one of ryan when he was like 6 up at their cottage. hes in his swimming trunks holding boo-boo ( who is now mine). anyway we ended up walking to his friend sam's house. her house is adorable and really bug, exept it was turned into apartments. her mom lives upstairs and she her brother and her friend live on the main floor. anyway i had fun with her dog, spike, who does a great michael jackson impression. one of her cats followed me into the bathroom and watched me pee. that was weird. so we drank a bit and walked home around 1. got into bed. i got another story. then we snuggled into sleep.

which is what im going to do now. the ride home will be yet another update.